Well I have spent the day pondering my predicament and I would like to thank my friends for the excellent advice that they have given me - except maybe from Curly as I think she has a hidden agenda and is trying to keep Bongo all to herself.
I know Jeffery deserves an answer but I want to take my time and make sure I make the right decision. And as Bongo says, he does have green hair. I need to think very carefully about what to do.
So I have decided to write him a letter so that he will understand how I am feeling:
What a surprise your proposal was. I thought that when you chose Daisy and your kids over me, that that was it and I had to move on. My heart was broken into a million shards of plastic and I spent almost a year on Claire's desk unloved and neglected. But now she has given me a new lease of life and I am in for a very exciting year. If I said yes to you, what would happen to my year of adventure?I am making new friendships and I know a couple of them are interested in me romantically. Maybe I need to explore those possiblities further before I know I would be making the right decision regarding marrying you.
Your proposal was just the last thing I ever expected to happen. And seeing you in your tux makes me go weak at the knees. I love the roses - they are beautiful! You and I have spent many a happy hour together and it would be so easy to accept your marriage proposal and slip back into our old routine. However I am just so unsure. I am not sure that I want to take on Nev, Bev and Kev. I am not sure that I am cut out to be a step-mum to 3 four year olds. And what about Daisy? Doesn't she want to see her kids? How do I know that you won't go back to her again - after all she is the mother of your children. You will always have that unbreakable bond with her - even is she does have club feet.
It took me a long time to get over you leaving me and I do not think I can risk putting myself through that again? And what about your hair - after all it is green.
I think I need some more time to think things through and I really need you to prove to me that you are 100% serious about me and that if we were to get wed, that it would be forever. I need you to prove that your heart belongs to me and no-one else.
If you are serious about this proposal, then please accept that I need some time to think things over. I want you to know that I do still love you and I think that I always will but I must be sure that I am making the right decision.
Please give me to the end of the month and then I will give you my answer on the 1st February.
All my love, hugs and kisses